Christmas wishes
November 26, 2024
Peace on Earth, and pickup trucks
by Jim Dodson
illustration by Gerry ONeill
Late last summer, my wife Wendy asked what I want for Christmas this year. She’s a woman who likes to plan ahead.
Figuring peace on Earth and good will toward men were probably not in the cards, a couple of options came to mind.
“A wheelbarrow and a new Chevy pickup truck.”
She laughed.
“You’ve wanted a new pickup truck for almost as long as I’ve known you,” she said. “I’m not sure either would fit under the Christmas tree.”
She was right, of course. “But if I had a new Chevy pickup truck,” I pointed out, “we could bring home a really big Christmas tree and all kinds of other great stuff.”
“I thought we agreed to start getting rid of stuff we no longer need or want,” she reminded me. “Not bringing more home.”
She was right about that, too. We are de-stuffing our house right and left these days. But an old dude’s perpetual dream of owning a new Chevy pickup truck doesn’t go away easily.
So, I asked what she wanted for Christmas this year.
“I’d like to go to a very nice hotel by myself for a night — and just do nothing,” she said.
I’ll admit, this surprised me, but it shouldn’t have.
Wendy is the most organized, generous, and busiest person I know.
She runs her own baking business, keeps the family finances and does the bookkeeping for both our businesses. She also does most of the grocery shopping, regularly gives blood and platelets, and somehow keeps up with the secret adventures of our far-flung children. Someone is always asking her to do something — volunteer to make pies for church suppers or donate 10 dozen exquisite hand-painted cookies for a charity fundraiser. Family, friends and neighbors routinely turn to her for advice on a range of subjects, and then there’s her egg-headed husband who can never figure out where he left his car keys, eyeglasses, lucky golf cap or favorite pens. Somehow, she can find these vital items within seconds — just one of her many superpowers.
Then there was her sweet mom, Miss Jan, who resided at a lovely assisted-care facility in town but spent every weekend at our house. With her dementia growing more apparent by the month, Wendy’s focus on her mom’s comfort and needs ramped up dramatically. Daily visits and doctor appointments filled her calendar, which also included lunches at Jan’s favorite restaurants and bringing her mom clean clothes and delicious dinners every evening, even as Jan’s appetite began to ebb.
No wonder she fantasized about a quiet night alone at a nice hotel.
Soon, it was middle autumn and life was speeding up dramatically. Wendy was busy baking for the larger crowds at the weekend farmers market where she sells her spectacular baked goods, and I was finishing revisions of my book on the Great Wagon Road, scheduled for a spring publication, and starting a new Substack column.
More importantly, Miss Jan’s condition was worsening by the week. Her physician advised us that she would probably be gone by Christmas.
Early on the morning of Nov. 1, the eve of All Saints’ Day, Jan quietly passed away.
Suddenly, what either of us wanted for Christmas was completely irrelevant.
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Losing a beloved parent puts life in a different perspective. In Jan’s case, her quiet passing brought an end to suffering from an insidious disease that cruelly robs its victims of speech and memory. What’s left is a hole in the heart that can never be filled.
Jan’s passing also reminded us that we’re at a stage of life where material things no longer hold much magic. There’s really nothing more we need or want. Except more time with each other.
For Dame Wendy, the simple pleasure of the holiday is finding the perfect live Christmas tree, putting on holiday music, cooking for family and friends, and doing small things that make the season feel special. Last year, she gave me a sensational pair of wool socks and a nifty garden shovel. I gave her a nice, fuzzy sweater and tickets to a concert, along with a jumbo box of Milk Duds, her favorite forbidden pleasure.
This year, I plan to give my amazingly busy wife two nights at a luxury hotel a few miles from our house, where she can put her feet up, drink very good wine, eat Milk Duds to her heart’s content and maybe find peace and joy in doing absolutely nothing. Miss Jan would wholeheartedly approve.
As for me, well, forget the Chevy pickup truck for now. But I figure the wheelbarrow is a cinch to show up beneath the tree. SP
Jim Dodson is a writer in Greensboro.
